12/5/17

Acceptance and Acknowledgement

 

Today marks a year in which I walked a dark journey of my soul.  Much of the year was spent searching for answers to the questions why, what did I do, what is the truth, how do I change me?  It came with the realization that I needed to set healthy boundaries, speak my truths, be authentic, and discover that I was not the only one to blame.  Digging deep inside took courage and to be honest felt like crap.  There comes a time during that journey that you must accept and acknowledge everything that has gone before.  For me that meant saying “Yup, I still miss him, no I cannot go back to that negativity,” and “Ya know, just because dad chose financial security over being with his kids, doesn’t mean he doesn’t love you.”  It also meant accepting that I may not hear either one offer a believable heartfelt apology for their Ego actions.  This also came with the knowing that I too get into Ego, Judgement, and all the other archetypes associated with human existence, I played my part in this stupid human game. 

 

The thing is, once you start applying all that you have learned thus far you discover that you can indeed accept and acknowledge that you cannot change the past.  You did what you did, they did what they did, and the situation is what it is (as much as we hate to admit this – if we are fighting acceptance and acknowledgement it is really a control issue).  Once you know yourself, all you can really do in any given interaction that goes sideways is be honest in all future interactions.  Even if that honesty includes saying you are stepping on my boundary, stop it.  How do you know it is time to accept and acknowledge then release?

 

Consider this:

• Have you recognized the cycle you are stuck in?

• Did you analyze all the parts played by the person, place, or thing?  (Meaning what roles were played, which parts we’re you stuck in or reacted too)

•  Did you get stuck in the same emotion?

• Are you finding that you are tired of the same old repetitive process with the person, place, or thing?  (For example, if you find you cry after every contact – it’s time to remove it from your field, or speak your truth, or set a boundary)

• Can you Embrace the Chaos association with the interaction?

• Can you attempt to Forgive?

 

Looking back at those bleak days to now I see incredible growth.  While my interactions at this stage are not all easy, they are more real. 

 

Happy Anniversary… You made it this far!