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Spiritual Journey to Unconditional Love

On November 7, 2017 it will be exactly 11 months since my dark journey began.  At that time my soul was broken, incredible sadness and loss at the destruction of my marriage.  What began with blame and finger pointing, turned to shame and guilt, then deep sadness at the things I could not change about myself.  Transmuted to attempts to tear down walls I had built for protection.  All of this in an effort to understand the greatest gift of all, unconditional love.  Every step of this process involved the discovery of a new talent to be exercised for my betterment.  I feel the need to share my journey with others, so that when YOU meet loss, you too will have a place to start.  In laymen’s terms – what does it look like to remove your ego, how do you recognize the mirror, what really is that still small voice you hear, and how do you listen to it. 

 

Keep forever in your mind, that I know absolutely nothing, other than what I have gone through.  I am not an expert, I fall down, fail in my attempts, am inconsistent, and make mistakes like the rest of us.  I hope that this can be a place for others to come and share their thoughts on their healing journey.  I am open to discussion on other options and ways to heal (I love learning).  I will not tolerate bashing, I will not be vilified for my thoughts and beliefs, nor do I allow others to experience the same within this framework.  Nor will I hold your hands, your journey is after all your journey in life.  What I have to offer may not be for you, however you will have to do the work required to heal yourself if you wish to heal. 

 

Worshiping the Money God

  • Writer: Wendy S. Hockenberry
    Wendy S. Hockenberry
  • Nov 13, 2017
  • 2 min read

Updated: Jul 3, 2018

I have often heard "Money is the root of all evil," wondering how true this statement is. I know that money issues are one of the biggest factors cited for marital problems. Such was the case with my own marriage. We wanted out of debt, we wanted stuff, we wanted freedom to do things without limitations. Want want want... my ex started to spend more time working trying to dig himself out of the hole, never realizing that his happiness didn't belong in things. Here is where our paths started diverging in the woods. I totally understand where he was coming from, but he was losing sight of the most important things in his life. Love... he stopped feeling my love. His children caused more and more problems, he stopped feeling their love... (there is a trickledown effect here, the more you chase down money the less you feel and show love because you're knocking your heart against the pavement to achieve the almighty dollar. The bruising that follows that heart bashing put us both into depression.)



Temple of Tolerance Safe


The longer this went on the less I wanted to do with it. I moved away from the desire to own a home and wanting more stuff toward being happy engaging in my hobbies. Too much time was spent sweating how we were going to get a hot tub, and make it work - when that time could have been spent interacting with the ones we love before they slip away. It is unfortunate that I slipped into Ego and shut myself off from all others, but what the heck... the Money God makes people depressed as a matter of cause. How do you know you're slipping into that kind of worship?


Ponder this:

  • How many times did your family say you work too much?

  • When you get time do you immediately bury yourself into another project or hobby instead of looking at your partner or children (or dog) in the hopes it will turn into a little jack cash?

  • Are your thoughts hyper focused on bills?

  • Are you in the process of building a business, and suddenly you look up and don't see a single soul you know or love standing next to you?

  • Do you spend your spare time thinking about the stuff you want, then planning ways to purchase them (the amount of times you fall into I want stuff and how do I get it is the key)?


If so, you have spent too much time worshiping the Money God, it is time to put the boat in reverse, your family and friends are the things that help make you feel good - leaving them behind won’t help you feel better about yourself.


Last Updated June 11, 2018


 
 
 

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